Time changes

people come and go..
on one fateful day..
some of those gone will return..
others may just vanish till the day of death..

life has its ups and downs..
happy memories shall be cherished..
warming the heart with every detail..
others may just burn with each recollection..

bittersweet moments and pure adrenaline rushes..
tears from losing a loved one..
shrills from jumping off the aeroplane..
awaiting for the right second to open the parachute..

random rumblings and familiar places..
prick at the conscience of the thinking..
remembering the vision of the thought-of..
some things are just better forgotten..

the busstop where you bade goodbye each night..
the bistro where you used to chill at..
the songs which he used to sing to you with the purest voice..
will melt into history all too soon..

all that is left are footprints..
which footsteps once tread..
the cement dried to concrete..
the present already past..

words from the past..

"nv given so much to anyone before..
nv tried so hard before..
nv cried so much before..
nv held on so tightly before..
nv has someone meant so much before..
nv done so much before..
nv hurt myself so much before.."

"maybe i'm not the one for u..
maybe i'm not serious abt u..
maybe i am..

maybe i just enjoyed talking to u..
maybe i really did want to be w u..

maybe i'll nv find another one to love..
aft all it's said there's only one in ur life..
n i think it has happened to me before..

maybe i'm just being sore..
maybe becoz i really do hv feelings for u..

maybe it's just frenship..
maybe it's an attraction not reciprocrated..

maybe u might be the one..
maybe u might not be the one..

maybe this is for the better..
watever it is..
i dun want to hv anymore regrets..
at least i've said wat i needed to say.."

Are you asleep now?

four on the faces of clocks around the city..
are you asleep now?
your sweet face so angelic..
the feathered snow lose its silvery lustre..

the day's been hard on you..
please be asleep now?
tomorrows will be better..
compared to the hardships faced in history..

so snuggle up tight, love..
you are asleep now..
dreaming of fairies and daffodils..
before awaking with the morrow's sun..

Life in all its splendour

Lavishly decorated house..
If only it could be called a "home"..
Feelings not reciprocated..
Equates to unrequited love..

If only it could be unconditional..
Not determined by wealth or status..

Anguish torments men..
Life plays tricks on us like circus animals..
Live life in a different light..

Innocence may be bliss..
Temporal alleviations from life's turbulences..
Strongest is the one who challenges..

Silence often brings about peace..
Persistance yields success..
Laughter is the language of the soul..
Equanimity derive from strong depositions..
Nonsensical thoughts flood the creative minds..
Doctrines are rules meant to be broken..
Order is not any of life's constant..
Unique characters are paramount..
Reality has to sink in one day..

The alone

talking to her is useless..
for she answers you in a tease..
beating about the bush is her forte..

trying to drive your silly mindsets into her are senseless..
for she already understood and ditched your perspectives..
slamming you hard to the ground in a matter of seconds..

personal opinions not belonging to her doesn't matter..
for they do not mean a thing in her materialistic world..
of glitz and glamour couture, booze and dance music..

when the lights die down..
and the music can no longer be heard..
she retires back to her icy abode..

flashes of events prevent her kohl lids from closing..
shutting out all forms of glittery annoyance..
hiding herself from the prurient pry of handsome nameless faces..

no one can understand her..
nor can they truly love her..
for the great berlin wall stands in their way..

many tried..
and countless others lost or perished along the way..
for that's the way it will be for all eternity..

only in the deepest silence cowering at the darkest corner..
she remembers how her life evolved..
in which she is now reduced to a mere symbol who follows the night..

Back and forth in time

conflicting thoughts filled her head..
her heart weak and succumbing to temptations..
to forgive and forget after the confrontation..
to silently bear a grudge and be untruthful..

fiery eyes blazed throughout the night..
her own wild character burning..
the light in her eyes dimmed as she recalled what he did..
she slammed the photo album shut..

she tore off the necklace he gave..
the roses black after death against her dresser..
the face staring at her painted in fury and disgust..
her eyes red and bloodshot after vases of tears..

tender cheeks sore from rubbing..
the equal tenderness of the slashes on her wrists..
the skin pierced and carved raw..
by the broken glass of an empty bottle of sleeping pills..

a lonely symphony roaring in the background..
the spilled wine devouring her white bedsheets..
she heard those shocking words from a friend once again..
and felt her dreams and hopes shatter as did her heart..

back and forth in time..
she gently rocked herself to sleep..
her tears slipped for the last time..
before she finally sleeps and never wakes again..

Don't

don't start it, if you're going to end it..
don't desire for it, when you don't need it..
don't choose it, if you will throw it away..
don't leave, when you don't want to stay..
don't seek, if you don't expect to find..
don't love, if you only hate..
don't try, if you don't believe it..
don't say "yes", when all you will mean is "no"..

Crap

if you're going to end it, don't expect to start it again..
if you don't need it now, you won't ever need it..
if you threw it away, it will never choose you again..
if you don't want to stay, leave and never come back..
if you didn't expect to find it, why seek for it in the first place?
if you can only hate, learn to love..
if you don't believe it, believe it and try..
if you only will mean "no".. don't expect a "yes"..